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Critical Reflection 

 

My fruit salad series manifested around 2018, I created around 6 pieces that were showcased in a group exhibition in Bahrain. I wanted to further explore this series but couldn't at the time, so I'm planning on revisiting it for my MA .

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

   

                                                8x8cm.    12.5x12.5 cm with frame.        pen, watercolor on paper.       2018.

                            -- Showcased at Bait AlSalmaniya Gallery under the curation of Ulafaa art group. Bahrain 2018.

                             -- at the Psydchic Cafe, a newly opened restaurant that supports music and art. Bahrain 2019.

 I want to focus on discussing navigation of identity; questioning and understanding one's-self as an individual, as a 'citizen', as a member of a dominant entity/group and the similarities or the differences between all three. 

  • Individual: As a person. 

  • Citizen: Of a neighborhood, a community, a country… a large group.

  •  As a member of a dominant entity/agent: Religion, culture, micro-culture, Family, even a tight group of friends. 

                            – questioning oneself – 

                            Who am I? As a person VS a citizen VS a member. Am I the same throughout the three, or

                            do I change accordingly and why?  

 

With this series I try to capture the uncomfortable, conflicting feelings that come in life. I call them moments of realizations; noticing our contemplation, by trying to understand our own behavior in the perceived existence within the physical world versus others. I am portraying  the moment of mental internal struggle that comes with questioning the known and the unknown; we tend to feel alien-like, uncomfortable with the situation at hand.

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fruit-Full:

I decided to use Fruits as my main subject, because of its strong symbolism in art. It has a strong history, dating back 3000 years to Ancient Egypt. It can depict life or death depending on how it's represented in a painting, it is also a stance on how life is short (Mitchell, 2016). As well, fruit has significant meaning in different cultures and religions today. One of my favorite well known, prominent Palestinian artists is Sliman Mansour. His work shows the resilience of the beautiful Palestinian people and culture. He uses a lot of fruits, vegetables, plants and nature. All these organic elements are symbolic to what had happened, and still is happening, in Palestine. For example, His use of orange trees are a representation of the great loss that happened in the Nakba of 1948, as the farmers were known for them, and olive trees for the occupation of 1967. He worked with a lot of natural material from the Palestinian land, like henna, clay and mud (Monsour).

 

One of the many symbolic fruits that represents Palestine today is the watermelon, and the story behind it is one to be told. I found an article written by Billy Anania that best explained what had happend. Since the war, there has been a ban on all public displays of the Palestinian flag of any kind. Whether it's advertisements, publications or photographs, any could result in imprisonment. To the point of banning the use of the flags colors, red, green, black, and white, in any kind of art since 1967 until today. In the 1980s, zionist forces arrested Sliman Mansour and two other artists Nabil Anani and Isam Bader, for having the colors of the Palestinian flag in their work. The occupier Israeli police chief tried to, first bribe, then threaten them to remove any political art from the exhibition they had in Ramallah at the time. “He then instructed the artists to present their paintings to the IDF for permission before exhibiting, stamping each painting as either good or bad. Anything that fell into the latter category would be seized. “The officer raised his voice and said, ‘Even if you do a watermelon, it will be confiscated,’” Mansour said. “So the idea of the watermelon came actually from the officer, not from us.” ” ( Anania, 2021).  Now, in Palestine, raising a freshly sliced watermelon became a method of protest that shows national pride.   

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

          yaffa 1979 by  Sliman Mansour                                                                       quiet morning 2009 by Sliman Mansour

Arabs, countries and culture have strong connections to fruit, whether dates, pomegranates or olive trees. They are mentioned in holy books, in writings, poetry and all art mediums really. We have such great value for them, it's rare to see a house in the middle east without some kind of fruit tree growing in their yard. My choice of what fruit I pick to combine and use is based on my background. It has everything to do with my culture, memory and even my likability of it. When I first started with the fruit salad concept, I would pick a fruit that would represent Palestine, another of Saudi and the last of Bahrain. Now I pick one of Palestine, another Saudi and the last one that stands for the UK as I now moved here, and all these experiences will help shape me, grow to who I'll become. But with that said, identifying what exact type of fruit was used isn't important, as ultimately the goal of the piece is that it shouldn't matter. What matters is the now; how the fruit is shaped and presented right here and now.
 

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Veronica Ryan, who is a local British artist, created a three piece marble and bronze sculpture for a permanent public installation, located at Ridley Market in London, that consisted of Custard Apple, Breadfruit and Soursop. a lot of her memories from when she was a child had to do with her work today. She mentions her choice of those fruits are from going to that same Market with her mother ( Create London, 2021). I found a lot of similarities between us, she spoke about her experience at art school and how her first year was hard. She came from a different environment and couldn't relate to a lot of her classmates. She did a piece that represented her experience in that first year,  Untitled 1977 -78. It was a tilted sculpture that looked like it was falling, discussing structure, and the idea of not feeling/being very balanced (YaleBritishArt. Wallis, 2022. 10:30 min). This questioning and realizing the situation, the relation between herself and her classmates, is exactly the type of moments that I am trying to portray in my work; to portray the inner struggle, questioning, contemplating and trying to understand or deal with the current state and circumstances. Although thankfully I don't feel like I'm completely out of place here, it is still something that I constantly question, the concept of relation in any situation, even when living back home in Bahrain or Saudi, mostly because of the fact that i never had the pleasure of visiting/living in Palestine. Her work, Untitled 1977-78, made me think of how the idea of morphing the fruits is the creation of an unbalanced outcome, because it cannot be placed or identified. The idea and concept of structure is something that I have been thinking about for a while, which is the reason why I'm planning to experiment with clay. 

Veronica Ryan 

commissioned by Hackney Council and produced and

curated by Create London, the Hackney Windrush Art

Commission is made possible with Art Fund support, with.                                                    Veronica Ryan-Untitled 1977-78

additional funding from the Henry Moore Foundation.

The accompanying public programme is supported by

the Freelands Foundation.

Both artists, Sliman Mansour and Veronica Ryan, discuss identity in their work. Navigating with the use of organic material or subject matter, from memory, current situations and to represent culture. My work does the same, but focused on, or to show and somewhat commemorate those ungrounding, unbalanced moments of struggle that come in life, that change our inner shapes, morphing us into something new, a process that sometimes can be painful. The reason why I call them moments of realizations, is because such situations force us to try and understand where one stands in this present moment because of those constant unbalanced feelings. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Why the face?

Having a face, with a specific expression, to convey emotion is something important in my work. I want to make my fruits more relatable, less of an object and somewhat of a reflection to the viewer.  There's a phenomenon called facial pareidolia where us humans tend to notice faces in everyday objects, and their emotional expression, just like we do for the living. As a survival mechanism, People need to quickly identify whether a person is a friend or not; recognizing intention to know how to proceed (Ouellette, 2021). We do such things because our brain needs to make sense of it, needs to rationalize and understand it. I'm taking this a step forward by giving my fruits a face, skipping ahead to focus on the emotional aspect; since the face on the object is given, the brain will then dig deeper to further understand the expression, the emotion of it, and then maybe connecting it with something recognizable, like for example a memory.  

 I believe there's a reason why people watching is a thing; I think it's because we can observe, feel and go through a whole range of emotion but from a safe distance without making it personal. Just like a movie that can make you feel excited one minute and scared the next, we can go through the same thing from simply noticing people's behaviors, expressions and attitude. Then, our minds wonder, questioning, reasoning and  creating different scenarios for each. Author Vanessa Van Edwards presented a talk at TedXlondon called ‘You are contagious’. She talks about something called ‘the facial feedback hypothesis’. How not only does our emotions cause our facial expression, but our facial expression also causes our emotions. The theory is, when we see someone with a face of intense emotion, we can catch it. For example if we see someone who's scared, we automatically become scared, then we try to rationalize the emotion by looking around for the threat. She explains that this theory comes from microexpression,  a universal facial expression that Dr. Paul Ekman has studied, discovering that there are seven different expressions, and we all make the same ones.( TEDxLondon, Van Edwards, 2017. 7:20 min) 

  

 Which leads me to what type of emotion I want to convey, and reason behind it… 

It's all about the gaze! 

 

With my fruit salad series I chose to apply a melancholy facial expression. Eyes gazing away from the viewer to help portray and emphasize the fear or uncomfortable-ness that comes with self confrontation. I'm trying to portray unsure-ness and in constant contemplation; highlinting feeling powerless. This mixed emotion, that can be expressed as anxiety, comes with the moment of realization. These realizations are sometimes a struggle to get to, be in and move forward from. because they are the moment you realize something is off and might need change, but what, when, how and how long? Or is it even safe to change?

 

On a day of exploring London, I stumbled upon an exhibition at HackelBury, by British photographer Alys Tomlinson, titled Gli isolani- the islanders. It contained a series of black and white portrait based images. Women and men wearing unique traditional clothes that were handed down to them from generations. Worn during festivities, celebrations and for different rituals. She spent two years exploring the lives of islanders in Sicily, Sardinia and islands of the Venetian lagoon in Italy. Through the project She captures and introduces the viewer to a new place, faith and identity. What I found interesting in her photographs is the whimsical aspect of the photos, and the well defined intense gaze of some of her subjects. This strong piercing direct look of each person gives me a strong sense of confidence. Each stand in a scenic view or having a strong brick building in the background gives me this heavy sense that the subject is confident and proud of his or her surroundings, grounded and rooted in their beliefs. These works are a perfect example of exactly the opposite of what I'm trying to achieve, which in a way makes them a great comparison point. The gaze in my work is something important as it lacks confidence, the floating of the fruit lacks ground-ness, the plain background gives a sense of emptiness, flat rather than depth and richness. Which is to portray the feeling one goes through in moments of realizations (HackelBury, 2022).

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Flowers and tools

 

In my paintings the flowers are the extension of the mind, they represent thought.    

 

Flowers are beautiful, powerful, complicated yet delicate fragile creations, bloom in certain states, just like the mind. They’re used in almost every emotional situation, we bring them to our loved ones, the living and the dead. All my flowers are a mix, inspired from the flowers of fruits that were used in the painting, others by middle eastern desert flowers. The idea of the desert, something so dry and hot, assumed to be dead, can have such beautiful living things; playing with the idea of life, or in this case the mind, living through harsh environments.  As well, to oppose; that something fragile or pretty isn't necessarily weak, or good for you. Like negative thoughts that limit you from a better reality. 

 

Influence plays a major role in each of our lives, everything is borrowed, even our personalities. I realized a lot of who we are is dependent on our situation: A ‘social idealism’ is manifested, sprouted for the sake of association, connection and belonging, or the fear of being rejected, but at what cost? Does being aware of the rooted ‘influences’ change the mind? Would there be an effect on our thoughts and behaviors, the things we say and do, to ourselves and others? Is there a change to internal or external outcomes? 

 

When faced with moments of realization, we tend to do what we can for the sake of survival, trimming and cutting out any sign of irritation and try to go on with our day. Sometimes we do that on purpose but most of the time we do it without realizing. Which leads me to discuss conformity that stems from the subconscious, and sometimes conscious mind, is a self imposed limitation; Priorities shift based on the perceived importance of identifying with a specific ideal. Individuals growth of psychological states can be suppressed and muted as consequences of simply associating to a group within a larger society — whether it is a religious sect, a geographically based community, a bloodline or a family name.

 

I represent the concept of self mental limitation in the painting by giving it a tangible existence. I chose to go with everyday objects, like scissors, kitchen knives or bird cages. Things that you see all the time, sharp and can be harmful if used incorrectly or for the wrong reasons. 

Bibliography

 

Anania, B. (2021) How watermelon became a symbol of Palestinian resistance, Hyperallergic. Available at: https://hyperallergic.com/666111/how-watermelon-became-a-symbol-of-palestinian-resistance/ (Accessed: November 20, 2022). 

Ajplus (2021) How the watermelon became a Palestinian symbol of resistance, YouTube. YouTube. Available at: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VzWe0A-DMaA (Accessed: November 20, 2022). 

Create London (2021) Hackney Windrush commission by VERONICA RYAN, Hackney Windrush Commission by Veronica Ryan - create London. Available at: https://createlondon.org/event/hackney-windrush-art-commission-by-veronica-ryan/ (Accessed: January 12, 2023)

Culture of Arab Food (2018) Dates: Fruits of paradise, Culture of Arab Food at the College of William and Mary. Available at: https://cultureofarabfood.wordpress.com/2018/09/26/dates-fruits-of-paradise/ (Accessed: January 3, 2023).

HackelBury (2022) Alys Tomlinson: Gli Isolani (the islanders), HackelBury Fine Art. Available at: https://hackelbury.co.uk/alys-tomlinson-gli-isolani-the-islanders/ (Accessed: october 10, 2022). 

Mitchell, M. (1016) The symbolism of fruit in art, The Art Blog by Mark Mitchell. Available at:https://www.markmitchellpaintings.com/blog/the-symbolism-of-fruit-in-art/#:~:text=The%20fruit%2C%20like%20human%20life,our%20presence%20in%20the%20world. (Accessed: November 9, 2022). 

Mansour, S. (no date) Palestine art by Sliman Mansour - Palestine art prints and posters by Sliman Mansour. Available at: https://slimanmansour.com/about-the-artist-sliman-mansour/ (Accessed: November 14, 2022). 

Ouellette , J. (2021) Our brains "read" expressions of illusory faces in things just like real faces, Ars Technica. Available at: https://arstechnica.com/science/2021/07/our-brains-read-expressions-of-illusory-faces-in-things-just-like-real-faces/ (Accessed: december 12, 2022). 

Saber, I.F. (2022) Understanding the Middle East's passion for pomegranates, Middle East Eye. Available at: https://www.middleeasteye.net/features/middle-east-pomegranates-what-is-the-significance (Accessed: November 25, 2022). 

TEDxTalks and Van Edwards, V. (2017) You are contagious | Vanessa Van Edwards | tedxlondon, YouTube. YouTube. Available at: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cef35Fk7YD8. (Accessed: November 3, 2022). 

YaleBritishArt and Wallis, C. (2022) At home: Artists in conversation | Veronica Ryan, YouTube. YouTube. Available at: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ezf5DvWuth0 (Accessed: January 12, 2023). 

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